SCAWWY 😱 marina

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With black irises, these exotic and unusual blooms symbolize elegance, mystery, and rebellion. The rhizome of the iris is diuretic, emetic, expectorant, and purgative - that is, it eliminates matter from the body. Used most for dropsy (edema), along with treating coughs and hoarseness.

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[concoctive]

[ he takes those hands and squeezes them, instead of clenching his fists, bringing their joined hands up to press into his forehead. remember those pre-game threads we did? where they were emotionally fucked up and everything was implied to be awful?

the real thing is so, so much worse. we did not even touch upon the depths. ]

... we got everybody. At least, we think we did. Lucas wasn't even showin' any signs when Yuffie - [ bites his lip, before lowering their hands and looking up at her. ] It's not a win. None of this is. We really are bleedin' out.

[engraven]

[ HOW DID THIS HAPPEN TO US TRULY. she's going to lace fingers tightly with his own and just press their foreheads together very firmly because she doesn't really want to be anywhere else except with a few people commiserating and grieving, some combination of the two in a terrible stomach-ache-inducing form. ]

We didn't win anything. We lose every week. It's not even about winning it's about surviving... surviving until the end somehow? Some...how...

[ her voice just wobbles a bit. she's not a crier, but she might just become one quickly at this rate haha. ]

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... oh, Mari. [ considering how often girls have found him just bawling his eyes out, he advocates for crying when you feel it. but he squeezes her hands, before - he lets go of one, drawing it back, if only so that he can wrap that arm around her and squeeze her as his eyes shut tight. ]

Survivin'. That's the whole goal, ain't it? Find your partner, survive until the end, get a godsdamned wish - but they're stackin' the whole thing against us, and it's gettin' worse.

[ even an optimist like alfyn struggles to maintain hope, even if he's still determined to hold on. ]

[engraven]

Don't know if I even want a partner, I don't care how bad it wants it... I don't want to curse someone with that. The impending doom that if I go off like a bomb they'll die if I'm caught.

[ she clutches tightly at him now, still determined to cling onto the belief that maybe if they make it through this, there's a way... there's some way to... and...

what if there isn't? she doesn't let herself finish the thought, just closes her eyes and furrows her brow. ]

Find them and live, find them and kill the people you care about... it's definitely rigged.

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... no, me neither. [ there's hesitation, a moment of consideration. but he focuses on holding her, squeezing his arms around her and pressing his cheek against her head. something about her reminds him so much of primrose, of therion, it makes his heart ache - and he wants her to stay safe.

if she finds a partner, what happens? ] The fear that we'll wake up and find out that someone's died, and we're about to lose another person, another two, three, even four. There has to be somethin' to break the cycle.

[engraven]

What if it makes you worse, what if you're more likely to monster out if you do...?

[ she reaches up an errant hand, pawing for his head to bring it down. her hand rests gently on the back of it, quietly smoothing through some of his wild hair as she droops. ]

... What if it's our only ticket out of here? Those advantages it gives you? It's not right...

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[ he hadn't thought about her first question, not until this very second, and it makes him all the more grim for it. he looks back at her when he's brought down, big brown eyes wet and unhappy with unshed tears. this is - hateful. miserable. ]

... I'd be kinda out of luck, to tell you the truth. [ quiet. ] My partner's dead - I'm the only golem, now, and it cried out when it happened.

Would have to find somebody else that lost their partner, too, if I wanted to. But I don't... I don't want them to lose their life if somethin' happens to me.

[engraven]

I'm sorry... that you had to hear that. I thought that perhaps... that might be the case. That because they're so bound to us that we'd feel it even if we'd never met.

[ petting him softly, scritching maybe even a little as she leans her head into the admission of his monster. it's startling, actually, but she can see why now at this point he wouldn't see reason to hide it from her. if his partner isn't here, who's he putting in danger? no one. a strange weight. she pulls back carefully, just barely to gently push a little hair from his forehead to press a kiss right there at the hairline. ]

... Here. A secret for a secret, and important, I think. [ because what happens if it's one of them next? what signs to look for? how dangerous? ] Mine is the bakunawa... a serpent. Do you remember Rondo turning into that silly, little yellow snake? ... That was me.

[ a little bit of levity. don't cry, baby boy. even though the whites of her eyes are red. ]

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It's... been a week, now. I'm not sure who it was, but it had to have been one of the people we lost last weekend. [ and that's still... so many people to choose from.

but he looks back at her, honest, unafraid of sharing this knowledge. the monster might not want to be known, but alfyn has never, ever been afraid of being known, himself. and he trusts marina with this. especially as she looks at him like that, treats him like this. his eyes close with the press of the kiss, and he takes a shuddery breath at the kindness and affection.

there's not a flutter in his heart, but instead a deep, profound warmth, something protective and relieved that she's here. he prefers this to how he saw her on the trip, their thursday, to the white stone walls. ]

... ahaha, really? He was cute, like that. Seemed pretty happy with it, too, and that'd really come in handy for you. [ turning someone into a boop noodle if they tried to attack her. ] I can draw somethin' not alive and make it real. I've only done it once, so far, 'cause I haven't needed it and I've been practicin' my drawin' skills.